|| i cant get to sleep
so i suppose i should update... like, really update... seeing as how i havent really
okay, first friday!
-party turned out great
i got to see all of my friends (minus morgan because she had to work). allison came with celia and they just made me laugh the entire time bc here comes celia down this big ass hill to get to the bonfire in four inch heels. i love her. ALEX CAME! which was great because honestly i wasnt expecting him to come through with it. lena came with chris and rick and david and jeff. they made it interesting, it was great. jeff was makin everyone laugh. oh and i got to see two beautiful girls that i have missed very much - emily and katelyn. and they brought two dates that ended up just sittin and "chillin" with daniel and cj and jon and that group that were all smokin. then it turns out they know brad heard, and called him for some reason so brad heard showed up with a group of his friends and i dont think ir eally knew any of them (josh wasnt there thank god). but it was really straight, brad and i talked and stuff and we are straight. mel got there later with tina bc tina had a recital earlier that she had to sing at so they came after that. and ive really missed melissa... its not the same. at ccs she was my best friend. we were close adn everyone knew it. now its just harder bc i dont see her everyday. okay, i really didnt see her everyday there either bc neither of us really ever went to school, but still. its weird, because we are exactly the same in so many ways. oh, and the other girls from ccs came earlier before anyone got there and that was cool to see them bc i havent seen them in forever and a day. johnathan and braydon came ot see kaytee and i hadnt seen johnathan in a while so that was cool. we chatted some. robert came too! hah that was great. he brought me awesome presents. haha. i <3 him to death. it was a lil awkward though bc he came with lauren and mel and brad were there so yea.. you get the picture. OHHHHH and i got to see taylor (the absolute love of my life / potayto / polka dot) and she came with kyle and megan and ive missed kyle a lot so it made me really happy to see him come. tommy and his group of friends came. and then the guys that came with katelyn and emily called more guys to come, so yea. it was awesome though. i hung outwith the boys and allison and lena most of the time. it was a really awesome party. i havent had that much fun in a long time. and damn it was cold as everything, but the bonfire was great.
all in all - it was awesome. thanks everyone! and thanks kaytee for everything that you did!
i learned that ive finally let go. i dont need this person in my life anymore and it has taken me forever to realize it. it was good to see them friday, but it made me realize, they werent everything i though. i knew it all along, but just wouldnt accept it. i mean he is sweet... but things are just different, and i am growing up.a nd he is stuck basically in the same place as he was several years ago.
on a lighter note! i got all of my christmas shopping done. im so excited this year. i got everyone really good presents. it makes me happy when i see people i love getting things.
miscellanious things that have happened since i last updated....
tomorrow i have a "consultation" i guess you could call it with dr. muniz. i am definatly having the minor-ish surgery in january. honestly, i am scared as hell, but at least it will stop my arm from hurting. alexis is in town, so that is always fun. me and corey are friends again/still whichever you prefer. in essence we started talking again. his birthday was one day after mine - crazy. ive been listening to something corporate a lot lately. i am def. going to the concert in january. its going to be awesome. (28th at tremont). i wrapped christmas presents todaay! that made me smile. taylor sent me pictures of herself bc we were both bored, and i added some text to a couple. i am just not reading the manual thing on my new dig. camera. its kinda confusing.... more than likely i will just go and figure it out without directions... i tend to have more luck at that.
butttttt i hope everyone is doing well. <3